All earthly things must come to an end.

So heres the story. I am no longer planning to post on blogger. All earthly things will come to an end and for me this is the end of blogger. I will still check your pages but will not continue to leave posts on mine. If you want to keep up with me visit the myspace page I have moved to. www.myspace.com/itsbrittarentyouexcited
Goodbye
Britt

Gravity

So a guy came and spoke at chapel today about blindness. Everything he said made me think, but one quote stood out to me. "They don't understand the gravity of their sin." People don't understand how they affect themselves and others because they are blind to the truth and see others faults but not thier own.

"They don't understand the gravity of their sin." People understand the consequences . Most times they KNOW when they sin and they KNOW the gravity of thier sin, BUT they do not UNDERSTAND the gravity of it. There is a difference. For example, I KNOW that God loves me but I don not UNDERSTAND that God loves me. I can KNOW all the facts in the world, but that doesn't mean I UNDERSTAND them or how they work. I KNOW the engine helps a car run, but I don't UNDERSTAND how it does that. So I might not have explained it well, but there is a a difference.

That is one of my struggles. I know and understand that I am sinning when I do it. I understand it is wrong and hurts me, others, and God. I understand that it HAS gravity, but I do not full understand the gravity of it. (Make any sense?) It is really hard for me to grasp sometimes. I wonder how some things could make a differenc. I know they probably COULD but I don't understand how. So this is my prayer right now- to fully understand the gravity of what I do, of my life and the affect it has on others, to have my eyes completely opened.

So I hope this made sense to you all. Do you understand the gravity of your life?

Later ~Britt~

I confess

Ya so God is making me a new person at school and I need to ask you all your forgiventess for something I lied to you all about. This hard for me because it is hard knowing that some of you will think less of me or may not really like me anymore, but I'm really more worried about Gods opinion right now, so I am trying to make things right. I can only pray that you all will forgive me.

So here it goes:

You know when I told you I felt hand on me in my church camp post....well....I didnt....I just really, really wanted to, because I just wanted to know that God was really there....so I told myself I did. I had heard of that happening to other people...and well I wanted (and somehow needed) it to happen to me to. I was really struggling with some things then. I told someone who happened to sit next to me...then I found out it had actually happened to her and I felt guilty.

Well I'm just trying to come clean so that there will be nothing between me and God, becuase he is truely making me a new person, i'm soooo sorry and i pray you all can forgive me, cause I'm not that person anymore.

Ya this verse convicted me, James 5:16 "Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed." I am sorry....I confess. I want to be blameless before God from here on out and I just want to be healed

The relient K song WHO I AM HATES WHO I'VE BEEN could never be more fitting then now.
so here is a couple of the lines from that song and part of a Barlowgirl song.

So sorry for the person I became
And so so sorry that it took so long for me to change
Cause who I am hates who I've
Who I am hates who I've been.

Barlowgirl
I Need You To Love Me

I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing you away from me
I just never saw how you
Could cherish me
Cause you're a God who has all things
And still you want me

And I need you to love me
And I, I wont keep my heart from you this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I alread have
I need you to love me

Your love makes me forget what I have been
Your loe makes me see who I really am
Your love makes me forget what I have been

And I need you to love me

Ya so there it is guys. I am sorry can you forgive me?

Also a thing I've told some people but not everyone is about when I was really saved. I just feel like I should get this out there. I said I accepted Christ when I was like 9 or 10 or something (I don't really remember). Well ya, I didn't. Everyone else said I was suppose to and that I was crazy if I didn't. I was being pushed and wanted to fit in and be left alone so I said I did. I didn't really though, I didn't know God at that point or really care to get to know him. I didn't even know what getting saved meant, I just thought I was suppose to.

I grew alot and learned about him after that and I actually accepted Christ when I was 16 at a fall convo. November 6 2004. I just wanted to let you all know that cause I needed to tell some people but hadn't, so this is my way of doing that.

Thanks for listening to my ramble. I am sorry and I confess. Can you all forgive me? I just want to be healed.

Britt

Everything....its really long...sorry...READ IT ANYWAY!

Hey everyone! I know it been a while but I thought I would take a few minutes to tell you all about all the stuff God's been teaching me and thats been on my mind. Its gonna be set up wierd and really unorganized but read it and tell me what you think. It may get long, but I would really apprectiate it if you read it and shared your thoughts.

1. Pure Motives. I've been thinking alot about why we do the things we do. Do we do things for God because we love him and have a desire to or for our own selfish reasons? Sometimes I think we focus on what it will make other people think of us, and I'm talking trying to fit in. I'm talking about the things we do for God. Do we do them so that people will be inpressed by our spirituality or because they please God. Do we do them to look like we have it together, or to please God. Do we do it to try to impress the guy or girl we're interested in or for God. Basically do we have and alterior motive. I remember the guy who was speaking on the night I was saved. In part of his talk he said he did everything to make his name bigger, to make people think highly of him, to be known for his greatness. This guy was an amazing preacher and well known for how well he did and he was big time, but he realized, his motives were not pure. Are our motives truely pure. I think sometime we convince ourselves they are but if you look deep enough, are they?

2. If you didn't have a purpose why would you still be here? My answer to this is. If you didn't have pursose God would take you home to heaven as soon as you excepted him. He keeps you hear because you have a purpose. Sometimes you wonder why you have to endure the things you do, or why God put so much on you, but he did it for a reason. I know there is no way I would be here without him. For those of you who don't know I have Crohns Disease. That means that your body does not recognize your intestines as part of you and therefore, attacks them. I am on medication and am perfectly ok now. I did however almost die my seventh grade year due to this. I'm and still here because of him and because there are still things I need to do for him. I can use that experience also to help others.

3. Are you willing to be healed and held, and can we use what has happened to us to help others. This relates to part of the last one. You can use experiences to help others. Many of us have been through hard things in life and question why. Many times God does this so we can help others. To some of us its like, pshhhh....so God hurts me to help others, where am I in all this, why did I have to be hurt for others. Well let me just say he did not do it just for that reason, he did it so we could be comforted. He wants to help us and let us know he is the only way, and sometimes he has to hurt us to make us turn to him. He want us to know he loves us and he wants to be able to confort us. He also teaches us through these things. Teaches us trust, and patients, and so many other things. The question is are you willing to be healed and held, because so many people resist that. Another question is are we willing to use it to help others.

4. How are our attititudes. When I first came to Bethel my attitude was great. Things were awesome and I was loving it. But for a couple of weeks my attitude (to God, not so much to others) was horrible. I kept focusing on negative things and being negative about myself. I was focusing on all the little petty things instead of the good things. I was complaining to God about how things didn't go my way and about little things, but took no time to thank him for everything else. The little stuff or the big stuff. I finally decided one day that that attitude had to change. I starting being possitive and thanking God and life was better. Your attitude has a hug affect on your life. Basically, Do we thank God for little stuff or just complain when things don't go our way.

5. Do we spend time with him in word and prayer. I have found my days go much better when I spend time in the word and prayer. Keep the comunication flow open. Take time out for God, and pray at all times. So many times we push it aside then put it of then forget. When it comes to the point where we can forget about God we have hit a very sad point indeed. Don't avoid it or make excuses, make time to spend with God.

6.Are we satified with just him. So many times we talk to God and were like, I love you God, but could you do this, this, and this for me. For example a spouse. We're like God your great, but I need someone else. I feel like you have to be completely satified with God to ever be with someone else. If not then your using that person as a filler or making them your god. Are we truely satified with just him or do we tell ourselves we need more. I thought I needed more for so long then God showed me how fulfilling it was to be in him and to just be there for others. I find fulfillment in helping others one on one because it is what he wants and I am satisfied. Learn to be satified with god and learn not to thirst for the praises of. There is nothing you need that he hasn't provided. Just tell him his love is enough, and is suffecient for you. Do you remember the cross, because all you need he has given for free (ya so alot of those words werent mine at the end they were from the song sustained...its on my main page about me read it!)

7. Do we compromise. So many times we feel like we should stick to our beliefs but we compromise. We say, oh it doesn't hurt anything, so it ok. Ask yourself this, does it help anything? For instance tv, the shows aren't dirty, just a few cuss words and a few sexual scenes now and then, but is that pleasing to God, truely? What do you suppose he thinks of that? Are we compromising? Music is another good one. Oh, I like the beat, but what about the words, you know you can hear them, is it pleasing to God truely, or are we compromising? A lot of times is the small things like that we compromise. Ya beer, drugs, and sex and big things are things that a lot of people think of when they think of compromising, but what about everyday things? Are we compromising. I'm going to stop with this one now because I could go on forever with it.

8. Holiness. This one relates to the last one. A lot of people ask, what is holiness. It is being different, set appart. Holiness is never compromising and always doing what God wants. Being pleasing to the Lord. Being different does not just mean being different from each other, because we already are all different. It means we should all strive to be like Christ. OK some of you are thinking, woah, time out, if were all striving to be like the same person, how are we different. Well it means we are being different from the world. Christ was not of this world and did not conform to its standards. The wisdom of God is foolishness to those who believe they are wise by the worlds standards, because the worlds wisdom is foolishness to God. The worlds opinion of what is wise and Gods are very DIFFERENT. Be set appart and strive to be like Christ. Never Compromise. Let people see it in everything you do. Also being like him does not mean everything will be peaceful. Jesus said, " I did not come to bring peace, but to bring division" it is also said in the bible that there will be peace when the anti christ comes. Christ said he came to cause division. Ok so what does that mean. I can think of 2 thinks. In Judaism during before christs time, your being pleasing to god came with being with a Godly household. It came as a group. Jesus is saying, each person, must decide for themselves, at this point our relationship with God becomes personal, and not based on a family. It means there will be division in homes because some will believe and some wont. The other thing I can think of is just the world in general. Like what I just said, some will believe and some will not, not the world will always be divided over the issue of Christ. So ya, that got long, but are you holy to the lord.

9. This one is related to part of the last one. Can people see it in you and what are you truely doing to make a difference. Do you live without compromise so others can see you are his. Do you go out of your way to show and tell others about him. This one has been a personal struggle for me. I sometimes feel like I don't do enough, because I'm not the kind of person to just go up to someone I don't know and start a conversation, even if God is telling me I should. Do we truely do what God wants all the time and do we truely try to do things for him. Dow we reach out to others enough and do we have a passion to.

10. Are we trying to get by by living on our "own abilities." So many times we think we can do it on our own. We get right with God and realize its going good. So instead of being smart and staying with God we decide, I can do this on my own, its going good and all, I can handle it. Pshh...what a bunch of retards we are. It all goes down hill from that point. So many times we think we can do things on our own but Gods the one who gives us abilities, THERE HIS, therefore without him, we have nothing. Do we depend on him enough or do we try to depend on ourselves.

11. Were is our focus. What do we spend most of the day thinking about. Is our focus truely on God, or do we think about guys/girls and homework and all our stress. Do we give it over to god and think about what he want or do we just stray and focus on whatever comes to mind. Thats another thing. Our mind. If our focus is truely on him, and if our mind is pure then he will be what we naturally think about anyway...this one is pretty plain on its own. Are you focused on God or not.

12. Are we trustworthy. If you are faithful with little he will trust you with much. So many people believe they are trustworthy, and for the most part they are, but most of them do this one thing that really annoys me. Its a matter of what they do with what you tell them. You tell them whats going on and they listen and give good advise. However, they don't realize one thing they sometimes do. When people ask them about things their like oh, its just cause shes struggling with this, this, and this. They don't go into detail or anything, and they don't realize why its a problem alot of times, or that their even doing it. But they do. If I tell you something private I expect it to be me you and God, not me you and your friend, or someone who asks you whats wrong with me. Its not that the people outright gossip, they just say too much sometimes. ya...hope you caught that. Are you trustworthy.

13. Are you honest with yourself. All these things so far have mostly been self assesment things. But are you honest with yourself, do you truely look in the mirror, or do you just say, oh I'm ok. Thats a really hard one to, cause sometimes we think we are being honest, but were not. Are we TRUELY being honest with our selves

Ok this is the end I promise. I just want to say that I am blessed and to praise God for it. Sometimes I don't take time to thank him for how he's blessed me so I want to do it now. He has been amazing to me and pulled me through so many things. I have failed and yet he still wants me. He has gave me awesome christian friends and awesome opportunities. He has been amazing to me in so many ways, and I am sooooo proud of my God. He is amazing and I want to thank him, because I am blessed.

Thanks for reading all of this tell me if you survived then leave me what you think.

Later ~Britt~

My B-Day!!!

Hey guys! Sorry I haven't put up any new posts lately....I haven't had much time and I don't have my own laptop yet, but I will be sure to give you a real update when I get it. Um thanks to all of you who remembered my B-day, and yes it was great, thankyall! And the tatoo thing (for those of you who know what I'm talking about)...totally not true...just something my cousin decided to make up for fun....good times, good times, sorry for those of you who were excited and much relief to those of you who weren't...we'll I better go cause I've got a paper to write. See ya'll!
Later
Britt

BKK 2006!

So I'm trying to put all my camp pictures on here but the computer isn't wanting to work with me right now so here are the few I managed to get up. I will try to get some more on here later, however, I don't know when that will be because I am leaving for Bethel Friday and won't have a computer for a few weeks and probably not a lot of time either. So I will just say that camp was amazing. God is teaching me to be a spiritual leader for sure. He taught me not to put things off and to do what he wants you to do when he wants you to do it. God is so amazing! I felt free to totally worship him while at camp and it was just amazing! One night while praying during the service I felt hands on my shoulders and I looked back to see who it was and no one was there. Thats crazy and amazing, God just continues to amaze me. One of the things that amazes me is how he works things together. A few examples: One (I've mentioned this one before), I finally put my relationship with him first and he sends me a couple of friends I haven't seen in forever. Two I told nathan no when he asked me to teach at camp and as a result my sister came to teach and she hasn't came for a couple of years. Three I realized not to put things off and that God had been telling me to do something for two years now and I had ran, and it was about a friend I was suppose to be talking to about him, and how I usally just avoided bringing it up...right after that the casting crowns song, here I go again came on, and I was like OK GOD I GET IT! Four, I felt the hands on me and I was thinking, man I'm nuts I'm never telling ANYONE that there gonna think I'm crazy. Well at devotions Amy happened to sit next to me and for some reason I told her about it, and she said I wasn't crazy and that she had experienced the same thing, and so it was wierd that he brought me someone with the same experience. and five, when a I went to audition for Reniassance theatre I met Aubrey and she said she had a roomate already, but then something happened and she managed to get a hold of me some how and now she's my roomie at college and I think God definately planned that, and I found out that I had to have a second roomie and it turns out my uncle Matt knows her and she seems awesome as well. God has just blessed me with two awesome christian roomies!
Ya so basically Gods just telling me, Hey I'm amazing, I've done so much for you so go and tell the world, Don't be ashamed, Don't be discouraged, and Don't put it off!
And another thing about camp. Then I'll stop rambling. I've always been a bit of a closet cryer so to speak. I don't like others to know my problems and I don't like to cry around people. I cry during movies, I cry when I think of how amazing God is, I cry when my friends are sad or hurt, I cry for my lost friends, I cry when I'm having rough times...I cry. I use to blame it on allergies or would try to hide it or do it alone. But now I just don't care, I don't care who sees me cry and who sees me for who I am. I had actually been dry lately, I cried a little on mission trip...like two tears was about it though, and at camp I cried, in front of everyone and I just couldn't stop. And it just felt soooo amazing because it was like a release...I had trained myself not to cry ever and God just said HEY LET IT OUT!!!! And so I did. Its kind of hard to explain, but I was reading a myspace the other day about being spiritually naked, and letting the world kind of see who you are and well, thats kind of how this is, I don't care if people know who or how I am anymore. I am me and I struggle like everyone else and well thats the way it is, and I really have no idea where I'm going with this now so I'll stop but it just feels good to be with God and to be open and honest about who I am and what I struggle with....sooo....anywho theres so much more to say but I don't want to bore you...soooo.... now for the few pictures I managed to get on here.

This is Emily playing washers.

Both of the above are of Brandon doing an interpretive dance to the national anthem.

Levi, Cheryl, Nathan, and Cathy singing the national anthem before the washers tournie.

Part of the Snyder family. Macayle, Misty, and Chet.

Emily and my cuz Levi.

This is Molly taking a picture of me taking a picture of her....tehe.

So I'll update again as soon as I can, I'm not sure when that will be but leave me lots of comments, because they really lift my mood, for real!

Later ~Britt

What Gods teaching me...

So this is just what God has been teaching me lately. Sorry if it gets a little long.
So I've always struggled with putting my relationship with God before my relationships with other people. However, God has changed me alot over the past year and even month. One night I was writing my thoughts and something finally clicked, and there was just this awesome peace that came over me. Not only peace, but excitement! He's been calling me to be a spiritual leader and to buck it up for some time now and I had been putting it off like crazy. I told myself I wanted a break and to live a normal life like everyone else and just relax. But then, I realized although being with God isn't alway easy, its alot better than knowing he's there and ignoring him, in fact thats miserable. Truth be known I was scared. But anywho I finally told a friend about my care about nothing and no one attitude, and I started to try to get back where God wanted me to be. It was slow at first, but I started trying, and a for the few months before mission trip and on mission trip God had been working in me big time, and when he finally gave me an opportunity to be a leader again, I took it, and its amazing. Then, like I said earlier, I was writing a few nights ago and something else just clicked. About how awesome and amazing he is and I just have this passion to live for him and I'm excited to see what he has in store for me, and its really hard to explain, but he just amazes me daily and for the first time ever I'm excited to wake up in the morning. One of the things I realized that gave me such peace is, that he is so amazing that he's all I need. I realized that I could be content with him and him alone, without a guy and without having friends nearby. And then he amazed me again. I finally made a commitment to put him first and what does he do but wake me up the next morning with a couple of my friends I hadn't seen in forever. And now I know I hadn't seen alot of my friends in a while because he didn't want me to because he wasn't first, but as soon as he was first he blessed me and gave me the opportunity to see a couple of them. The way he works things together just amazes me! So I'm going to put the few things I was writing on here, but I'm not going to take alot of time to explain them because there is one other thing he's been teaching me that I want to put on here too, so if you have questions just ask.
Um so heres number one...

Darkness does not consume light
Light consumes darkness
Fearing whats ahead in the dark seems silly
But dont we
Called to be spiritual leaders
But not seeing where we're leading
This too seems strange
But we are and we do
Fear and excitement mingle
Running through our veins like fire
Burning a passion into our souls
To be called by you
Lord the confusion seems clear now
Darkness does not consume light
Light consumes darkness
And heres numero dose

God you compare yourself to light
But sometimes when Im with you I cant see where Im going
I use to think if I couldnt see where you were leading that I was in the dark
But now I realize
Just realized actually
Youre just so bright you blind me
Because your ways are higher than mine
And your plans bigger
And your light so much brighter
No longer will I doubt when I cant see where youre leading
Ok just a little note on this. I know you're so bright you blind me is a little cheesey sounding, but its just me saying that sometimes times he has good reason for us not seeing whats ahead. For example if I could see right now what he has planned for my future I might run. He's still preparing me for it, so when it is in sight I wont run and be afraid. Also because he doesn't want me to focus so much on the future that I don't see what he wants done in the here and now...so anywho
Isaiah 55:9 "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thought."
3 (the last i promise)
Moving on
Excitement floods me like never before
A new level
An awesome new found peace
Spiritual peace
Feeling full and completed
With God and God alone
For the first time
This awesomeness of you
I finally understand
I feel I understand fully
But know I never can
Yet Im excited to know more
How amazing you are to me
I'm excited to wake up
Don't ever let it fade
I never want to go back
And I'm excited to move onward
You're calling me to be a leader
I accept with all that in me
I'm not putting it off any longer
This is amazing
Such peace and assurance
I know there's more to come
And I'm excited to move onward
Ok so I promise thats it for those. Now the one other thing he's been teaching me is courage. I've just read through Deuteronomy and started Joshua and I keep finding these verses about do not be discouraged, be strong and courageous. Its just like God telling me as I move on things may get tough but he'll always be there, and so there is no reason to get discouraged, and that is comforting.
Sorry this got so long. If you made it to the end leave me a comment saying you survived. And please give me some thoughts...PLEASE....

Settling

Settling. I was sitting around thinking (I think I think a little much sometimes...oh well...) about marriages and why they fail. I personally don't believe in divorce. I've seen the havoc it bring to ones life from experience. I was only 3 or 4 when my parents divorced (I think...I wasn't really old enough to remember). I'm not saying that if youre in an abusive relationship or your spouse has left to never be seen again you should stay with himor her...none of that is really the point of my ramblings though this isn't really about wether it is right or wrong...its about what happens to cause marraiges to end.

I think too many times people give up too easily. I believe God can heal broken relationship, maybe not in our time or way, but he can. I think when we here "God is the same yesterday, today, and tommarow" that we don't fully grasp it. Sometimes we say we believe it but we don't get the fact that hes the SAME. He's still the God that parted seas and dried up water, Still the God who does miraculous things. But we for some reason think he can't heal this certain broken relationship. So ya I think that is one reason for the divorce rate. I have one other however that I think is the biggest reason. If you don't agree let me know, like I said you won't hurt my feeling or make me mad. Although there may be problems within the marriage itself that lead to divorce I believe those problems may alot of times derive from something else. That something else is settling.

Ok settling, what the heck is that suppose to mean right? Well this is what it means. So many times men and women alike don't wait for the right one, for the one God has for them. They "settle" for the first man or woman who they find who is good, or attractive, or a strong christian, or that they feel an emotion for (note that love is not an emotion it is an action...so that could be a problem in itself) or whatever. They settle. I can't imagine settling. What would it be like every morning to wake up and see your spouse knowing I married the wrong one, or having a wonder, did I marry the right one. And how bad would you feel if he or she was truely giving all of his or her love to you and you couldn't completely return it.

Ok now I'm going to try to pull this somewhat together. Some people think that since they're settling for a good christian guy or gal that it will all work out. Not always true, just because he or she is a good christian man or woman does not mean they are the one God has in mind for you. An example. My cousin Levi is one of the strongest christian guys I know. He is amazing and its really obvious that God is his everything. It is obvious he will one day make a great husband and father. Now lets pretend he isn't my cousin...just for the sake of making a point. If I were to marry him, even though he is all of what I said above, I could never truely love him in the way I should in a marraige relationship. This I know becuase I've known him since forever, and I think he would probably say the same about me. It wouldn't last because despite the fact he is an amazing christian guy, he's not the one God planned for me. (btw I'm not saying cousins can't marry, but just in case the thought of me marrying my cousin wierded you out I decided to remove that factor...). There are alot of amazing people out there, and alot of amazing christian people, but that doesn't mean the first one you meet is for you. And as noted earlier so many people go on an emotion of a feeling and love IS NOT an emotion, its action, and when God said "love never ends" he meant it. It doesn't just fade away, and so many people think it does because they base it on an emotion and not action.

So I hope you got the point. I'm not good at putting my thoughts into words and must admit that words are not my strong point. It didn't turn out like I expected exactly but I hope you got the point. Even though marraiges don't last for alot of reasons, I think settling is one of the biggest, not waiting for who God has, not marring the right person in the first place. I think that would eliminate some of the problems within marraige. I'm not saying if you wait it will be hunky-dorie no problems, not at all true, but I think it would help big time. If any of you know me very well, you know I'm a little over protective of my friends, usually the younger ones, when it comes to them and dating relationships. So I'll tell you what I tell them, if its not based around God its not a healthy relationship, I tell them this alot and I hold to it. Mainly if its not based around God its not healthy.

So I will stop rambling now, and encourage you all, base it around God and don't just settle. Wait for the one God has for you.

Later
Britt

Little Kids Camp And More

Just thought I'd show you some pictures of my girls from camp so here they are...




These are of Katie...rolling off the bed for fun I suppose...I don't know....but she is one of the most hilarious girls I have ever met.


This is Kayla. She is one of the sweetest girls I've ever met and reminds me alot of my friend Hannah.


This is Destiny and Michelle...hangin' out and fixin' thier hair...as always.


Katie once again. She's a pretty cool kid and likes to eat "num nums" aka m&m's.


This is Elisa. She is very talkative and always happy. She cracks me up.


This is every on my bed (and on me for that matter). On the left is Michelle, then Raissa and Rebecca, in the orange is Katie, I don't know who the girl on Katie is or who the one in the love shirt is...they just showed up for the picture, the head you see in the back is Kayla, the other head is me, in the back in blue is Elisa, in the white is Taylor, and in the green is Destiny.


This is Aliyah (uh-lee-uh) with Taylors foot....don't ask me...they just started taking pictures. Aliyah by the way has the most adorable Kentucky accent I've ever heard!!! I love it!




Both of the above are of Raissa (ray-es-uh) and Aliyah...oh my...they're both talkative and loud...but I love 'em!


This is Taylor and Aliyah.



Um two pictures of Taylor, And Katie is the one not paying attention. Taylor is also a very sweet girl and reminds me alot of myself. She's kinda like a mini me. (Not in looks obviously...). And she is very pretty girl. (once again just like me...haha...jk.)


This is Rebbeca. She is the clingy one of the group, but a nice girl thats full of life.

This is Raissa (in the blue) helping to lead morning praise with the leader Misty.




These three pictures are of Michelle...I only took one of them...I'm not sure where the others came from...oh well. And Michelle is a very sweet girl as well and has some really pretty blue eyes. Michelle (and Taylor for that matter) were niether actually in my cabin...they just hung out in there all the time...which is fine, they're fun girls.


Hey...this is me...one of the girls decided she needed to take a picture of me because she thought I looked pretty that day...well whatever...I think I look the same pretty much everyday...


This is Kayla my sweetie again...awwwe!

Um ya so thats all the pics I have for you. Camp was alot of fun and I hope that I get to go back again next year. I didn't get pictures of anything else other than my girls really because camp was crazy and my camera hardly ever left the room, so I don't have any pictures of my class or the activities. Oh well. My class was the "sonshine" team and we had a "survivor week". We almost one the game, but we lost by 1/2 a point....ahhhh...oh well...it was all good fun! Oh and yay!!!! One of my girls accepted Christ!!!! Happy "Christ Day" Katie!!!! That was a quote from one of the girls in my cabin and I liked it so...hehe! I found out about it at devotions when one of the other girls said something about it and I was SOOOO excited...I think all the girls thought that I was nuts at that point!!! Oh well...happy dance today!!!

And now in other news. I baby sit a 5 year old boy now named Cody and he is a sweetie! Lots of Pleases, Thank you's, sorrys, and things such as that. He's a cutie too and he says cut things like "jumpoline" trampoline, and pace "space" and pretty much anything with an s is sless....ah...I LOVE IT!!!
What can I say I'm kid crazy!!!! Um I am also playing church legue softball on Friday nights and getting ready for a mission trip to eastern shore Virginia. I'll being going on that the 4th of July week and I'm sure you'll have more pictures. I'm sooo excited to see what God has for me there.

Oh and one more thing before I leave you alone. Its a quote from a song and its become my motto lately.
"Its alright, Its Ok, I'm not worried about tomarrow, For it'll bring me one more day closer to you Lord."

Um ya so tell me what you think!

Later
Britt

New Post Coming Soon!

Just wanted to say to all of my fantabulous blog readers, all 2 or 3 of you that is, that you should not worry because a new post will be coming soon. I just haven't had much time lately because of work and helping at little kids church camp. But never fear, posting will come back soon, I think.
Later
Britt

Happy B-Day!!

happy b-day to hannah
happy b-day to hannah
happy b-day to hannaline
happy b-day to you!!!

um ya so happy birthday! hope its a good one!

later
britt

For Fun...

Ya so I was bored the other day and decided to measure my really fat kitty...heres what I found and it is actually quite funny.

Hieght: 13
Weight: 14.5
Length: 19.5
Length w/tail: 29.5
Waste: 23

Yes you did read it right...my cat is actually bigger around than she is long...if you don't include the tail that is. Thats ok though, I love her anyway. And she's not my only odd ball pet. I have a dog that had kidney stones and another cat that has no tail...named nubbins for obvious reasons...anywho....

Oh and yay...no more high school...I took my last exam today and I think I did good.
My graduation is Sunday at 2:00 at the High School, and anyone is welcome to come!!!

Um ya so theres not much else going on here right now...but things tis good...hehe.

Later
Britt

Impassioned Cry

Um ya so another song I wrote...thats all I have to say...hopefully it will talk for itself...so here it goes.

Impassioned Cry

If its of the world it does not satisfy
If its of anything but you oh Lord
It does not satisfy
I want to live for you
Cause theres a fire in my soul
Oh but the world it does not want to hear
The world is crazy Lord
And it cannot satisfy

So hear my impassioned cry
Hear my impassioned cry oh lord
because it does not satisfy
It does not satisfy my soul
So hear my impassioned cry
Hear my impassioned cry oh Lord
For only you can satisfy
Only you can satisfy my soul
Nothing else will due
Cause I'm not content with it anymore
So hear my impassioned cry

My soul how it longs for the mercy that you give
Only you can fill this empty life
Its a feeling that cannot be described
This longing for you
For you and you alone
Cause my heart has not found rest anywhere
Anywhere but in you oh Lord
I've searched the world over
And it does not satisfy

So hear my impassioned cry
Hear my impassioned cry oh lord
Because it does not satisfy
It does not satisfy my soul
So hear my impassioned cry
Hear my impassioned cry oh lord
For only you can satisfy
Only you can satisfy my soul
Nothing else will due
Cause I'm not content with it anymore
So hear my impassioned cry

Lord if you don't hear
Then there is nothing for me
Oh but thats impossible
Cause your so real to me
Only you, Only you satisfy

So hear my impassioned cry
Hear my impassioned cry oh Lord
Because it does not satisfy
No it cannot satisfy my soul
So hear my impassioned cry
Hear my impassioned cry oh Lord
For only you can satisfy
Nothing else can satisfy my soul
Nothing else will due
Cause I'm not content with it anymore
So hear my impassioned cry

Hear my impassioned cry
Just hear my impassioned cry

Um...I'm out...see ya.
Britt

Two of 'em at once!

Its been a long time since I put anything I have written on here so I'm going to put a couple on. The first one has no title and is my most resent one, the second one I simply call Jesus. So here they are:

An empty hole
A hopeless wonder
An indescribable spiritual canyon
Like theres just something else I need to do
To make a difference
To fulfill my purpose
But what?
What should I do?
Where should I go?
Where is my place and what is my purpose?
The questions rake my soul daily
I search but they elude me
Maybe I'm just missing the obvious
I don't know
Its not quite like a pain
Its more of a longing
A need
It makes me breathless
It puts a strange tingle in my chest
Lord I just need to know
What should I do?
What should I be doing?
Oh Lord hear my cry!
Show me
Show me your will
Open my eyes
Show me what to do
Because Lord I need to do
I have to do
To do something more
I lie and ponder it late at night
It doesn't matter to me that its 11:03 pm
Surely theres more I can do
How can I lie in my bed for 8 hours strait
Time that I'm not using to do
To do whatever I'm suppose to be doing
God show me
Show me what to do

Jesus

Stricken with loneliness
In a crowd a million miles wide
Going crazy from the quiteness in a world that won't shut up
Like a plague of emptiness deep within my heart and sole
Theres too many people
And yet theres not enough
To much noise around
Yet the quites killing me
Why does nothing make sense anymore
Theres heartache everywhere
But where
Where is the freedom
Where is the freedom
The escape from all this pain
Freedom from the pain
Where is the freedom
The freedom from this world
Wont you finally speak to me
Wont you speak to me
Please
I need you
I need you
I need you to speak to me
Cause Jesus
Jesus your my freedom
My freedom from this pain
My freedom from this world that killing me
Freedom
Freedom
Freedom
Jesus
You are freedom
You are feedom Jesus
Jesus
How beautiful!
How beautiful!
Jesus
How beautiful!
How beautiful!
How beautiful!
Jesus
Jesus
Jesus you are beautiful!
My Jesus
How beautiful!
Jesus

Um...thats it for now. Tell me what you think

Later
Britt

Again...

Alot of things have happened again in my life.

1.) Again I have read TO KILL A MOKINGBIRD....imagine that...I'm lovin' it more every time!
2.) Again my car has been hit by another car! That twice this school year. I wasn't even in the car this time...I got called into Ms. Z's office 7th hour and she looks at me and says "Brittany this kid here said he hit your car...you having bad luck with it this year aren't you?" Um well at least this kid fessed up and so he will be fixing the damage (or his insurance company will be anyway). My light is busted out and have some paint scraped off the front bumper on the front driver side. My only question to him is....Why didn't you hit the part that was already damaged!?!...haha just kidding
3.) Again I am asking you to pray for my friend Charsie Haygood
4.) Again I am thinking more and more about college and can't wait!
5.) Again I am sad....I will not be here next year for Upward and will miss my girls and all the other kids very much. I look forward to college and Upward is one of the things I will GREATLY miss!

Well I think thats all the "agains" I have for right now....so I'm out!

Later
Britt

Charsie

Pray for my friend Charsie Haygood. She is a HS freshman and just been diagnose with Acute Myelogenous Leukemia. She is a brave girl and an inspiration to me. I LOVE YOU CHARSIE!

A couple of songs that come to mind...

Praise You In This Storm

I was sure by now you would have reached down
And wiped out tears away, stepped in and saved the day
But once again I say amen, and its still raining
And as the thunder rolls I can barely hear you wisper through the rain
I'm with you
And as your mercy falls I raise my hands and praise the God who gives, and takes away

And I will praise you in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For you are who you are, no matter where I am
And every tear cry, you hold in you hand
You've never left my side
And though my heart is torn, I will praise you in this storm

I remember when, I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry, you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone, how can I carry on if I can't find you
And as the thunder rolls I can barely hear you wisper through the rain
I'm with you
And as your mercy fall, I raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away

chorus

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes unto the hill
Where does my help come from
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

Never underestimate my Jesus

Never underestimate my Jesus
You're telling me that theres no hope
I'm telling you you're wrong
Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong, He will be strong
I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, Think you can
So never underestimate my Jesus
You're telling me that theres no hope
I'm telling you you're wrong
Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong, He will be strong
He will be strong
He will be strong

I'M CHALENGING YOU ALL:
LETS ALL TELL THE STORM HOW BIG OUR GOD IS FOR CHARSIE!!!!

Oh my!

Wow! Last night was crazy. Most of you know this already (being as only about 3 people read this) but FF was hit by a wind/hale storm and there was alot of damage. There are damaged rooves, trees in homes, flipped trailor, barns and shed and even a church that are completely destroyed.

There was also many trees down that were blocking roads and powerlines down everywhere. There were so many down in fact that none of FF or its surrounding areas had electricity for a long time, and some didn't get it back until morning.

Praise God there was no damage to my home (I only had to find our trash cans the next morning) and there were no major injuries or any deaths. Although this is in no way a funny situation I did hear one quote on the radio that I just have to share. "Watch out on the high way because the Christy's llamas are out and they ARE on the high way...so if you see a deer it might be a llama...." although this is bad....it is also very funny...how often do you hear watch out for llamas on the high way, or if you see dder it might be llama...not to mention llamas are just funny animals.

Anywho that what going on here in FF. I'll talk to you all later.

Later
Britt

Bethany Dillon...Again

"Stop telling God how big your storm is, and start telling the storm how big your God is."

Bethany Dillon
Mystery

Air is dry, the sun is gone
When I breathe I breathe alone
Ten times a day I cry, just to prove that I'm alive
Oh, that I'm alive
I have tried to be the queen
I have tried most everyting
Leads to the same place
ON MY KNEES OR ON MY FACE
ON MY KNEES OR ON MY FACE

Nations fall when you speak
And you have spoken over me
AND I AM TIRED OF GIVING IN SO EASILY
THE WAY YOU KEEP ON LOVING ME IS CHANGING EVERYTHING I SEE
Its a great big mystery

The fingers on my weathered bow
Are giving out, their letting go
I need you now to take me in
I CANNOT FIGHT ALONE AGAIN
CAN'T FIGHT ALONE AGAIN

Nations fall when you speak
And you have spoken over me
AND I AM TIRED OF GIVING IN SO EASILY
THE WAY YOU KEEP ON LOVING ME IS CHANGING EVERYTHING I SEE
Its a great big mystery

You are the mystery
You are the mystery

Nations fall when you speak
And you have spoken over me
AND I AM TIRED OF GIVING IN SO EASILY
THE WAY YOU KEEP ON LOVING ME IS CHANGING EVERYTHING I SEE
Its a great big mystery
Its a great big mytery

Is anyone else tired of giving in to the world so easily? Is anyone else amazed about why he loves us anyway? Is anyone else tired of fighting alone? Is anyone else being changed?

Introducing.......Army Britt

Just thought I would introduce you all to my army friend Lieutenant Brittany Meeks. She is real its not me making up somthing about myself. She's pretty cool and I thought some of you might be curious about who she is. Well she's a Lieutenant and and an awesome christian friend. Ya so heres some pics of her (and we both have red hair...wierd huh?!?)


Brittany at Trevi Fountain in Rome in 2005


Brittany with kids she gave school supplies, toys, and candy to while in Iraq in 2004


Brittany at the Colesseum in Rome in 2005


Brittany with her Dad at Heidelberg Castle in Germany 2005

Hope you all liked this
Later
Britt

ARE YOU READY FOR A REVOLUTION?!?

I want to start a revolution!!! Its called the who loves and lives for Jesus revolution. I'm so tired of listening to people complain because someone or something is differnt from us or the way we do things. Just because its different does not necisarly mean that its wrong.
For example, the religion issue. The word religion is really over used. Its not about are you Cumberland Presbyterian, are you Baptist, are you Methodist, are you Catholic, are you Penacostal, and on and on and on. Its about you and Jesus and God. Its about wether or not you love and live for Jesus.
Think about this,there are saved CPers and there are unsaved CPers, there are saved Catholics and there are unsaved Catholics. The same goes for Baptists, and Methodists, and everyone else. It has nothing to do with which christian "religion" you are affiliated with, ITS ABOUT JESUS.
When will we realize that its all about him and has nothing to do with our religions. When will we wake up to the fact that different is not always bad. In the bible God did not always use the same method to reach out to people, either did Jesus. Heres a quote for you, "IF YOU DO WHAT YOU'VE ALWAYS DONE YOU'LL GET WHAT YOU'VE ALWAYS GOT." If you want a change, if you want a revolution, do something to cause it.
Lets make our revolution Jesus!!!!
Heres a song for ya then I'll leave you alone. I capitalized the parts that stand out to me the most right now. But that all changes from day to day, but anyway, the song...

Bethany Dillion
Revolutionaries

Many have traveled this road before
I see their tracks in the dirt
But maybe I don’t agree
With where they are leading
AND WHO AM I, JUST A YOUTH
BUT WHY HAS THAT BECOME THE EXCUSE
A monotone voice
In my head saying

Dreaming all the time
It’s so foolish
Your flood of empty words
Will drown you in ruin
So we listen
SHOULD WE LISTEN

THEY SHAKE THEIR HEADS
AS THEY DRIVE AWAY IN THE BANDWAGON
DIDN'T FEEL LIKE HITCHING A RIDE
OH, BUT I'LL BE FINE
Some nights it’s hard to be alone
I want some kind of kinship
But the finish line
It drives me on
When they say

Dreaming all the time
It’s so foolish
Your flood of empty words
Will drown you in ruin
So we listen
SHOULD WE LISTEN

COME WITH ME
THEY'LL CALL US REVOLUTIONARIES
COME WITH ME
THEY'LL CALL US REVOULUTIONARIES
REVOLUTIONARIES
REVOLUTIONARIES

Dreaming all the time
It’s not foolish
YOUR FLOOD OF LIFE GIVING WORDS
THEY WILL REFRESH, THEY WILL REFRESH

Dreaming all the time
It’s not foolish
YOUR FLOOD OF LIFE GIVING WORDS
THEY WILL REFRESH
SHOULD WE LISTEN
REVOLUTIONARIES

Think about that a little.
Are you ready for a revolution?
If you are....
COME WITH ME; THEY'LL CALL US REVOLUTIONARIES

Later
Britt

Update Time

Ya so its that time again. I just gave my speech on Upward, which I think went well, and so I thought I would take a little time to update because its about that time again.
Nothing much is really going on here other than Upward, which is awesome!!! I absolutely love being with all those kids, call me crazy if you must.
In other news I am visiting Bethel this Friday to compete in the Hindrex scholarship compitition. I'm a little nevous about it, but mainly I'm really excited! Ya so be prayin about that.
Well theres really not much else going on right now so I'll leave you, all of my wonderful blog readers, alone.
Later
Britt

Good Song

Ya so I love this song. Its kind of old...I think it came out in the 70's maybe and at the time when it first came out it was very controversial. I love this song and think it has a great message and it really gets me thinking. I hadn't thought about this song for a while but I found out I have to sing at church sunday and me and my step-dad came across this song so he's going to play the guitar while is sing...but anyway the song:

WISH WE'D ALL BEEN READY

Life was filled with guns and wars
Everyone got trampled on the floor
I wish we'd all been ready
Children died the days grew cold
A piece of bread would buy a bag of gold
I wish we'd all been ready

Theres no time to change your mind
The son is come and you've been left behind

Man and wife asleep in bed
She hears a noise turns her head hes gone
I wish we'd all been ready
Two men going up a hill
One disapears one left standing still
I wish we'd all been ready

Theres no time to change your mind
The son is come and you've been left behind

Life was filled with guns and wars
Everyone got trampled on the floor
I wish we'd all been ready
Children died the days grew cold
A piece of bread would buy a bag of gold
I wish we'd all been ready

Theres no time to change your mind
How could you have been so blind
The father spoke
The demons dined
The son is come and you've been left behind

The father spoke
The demons dined
The son is come and you've been left behind

You've been left behind

Wow!!!! Thats a powerful song to me!

Well thats about it...will you be left behind?

Later
Britt

Love

So I was reading the 6th Harry Potter book...or maybe it was the 7th...I'm not really sure...which ever one is the most recent....and I got this huge lesson from it.

Think what you may of the Harry Potter series: like it, dont like it, hate it, think its stupid...whatever...I dont care cause the point of this is not Harry Potter but something I realized while reading it.

Anywho...in this book there is the bad wizard voldemort, who is basically a mass murder, and the good wizards, Harry, Dumbledore, and many others. But the point of this series is one will die by the others hand eventually. Harry is only 16 and has no idea how he will ever beat a wizard as powerful as voldemort, so he confides in Dumbledore. Dumbledore tells him he may not know as much as voldemort but that he has one power voldemort will never have. That power is love. Love is the one power he cant defeat, because he doesnt know how to love...love is the greatest protection and power.

Ok now that you know this I'll tell you my point. In this book love is said to be the strongest power, and you know what, thats actually true. God said: "faith, hope, love, abide but the greatest of these is love" and "love never ends". It just woke me up to the fact that with Gods love we can do anything.It also woke me up to something else.

It reminded me of my favorite verse in the bible John 15:13 "Greater love has no one than this, that he would lay down his life for his friends". To think Jesus laid down his life for us. He considered us friends. We spit on him, cursed him, and killed him, but yet he considered us friends. How awesome is that. Despite everything he loves us and calls us friends. It amazes me. What LOVE!!! What other love could we ever possibly need than that. I think sometimes we get so caught up in wanting others to love us that we don't realize, we have his love, and thats enough!!!
It also made me think of a poem I wrote last year for English class:

Do not send them away
I want them here with me
They have undying faithfulness
They have unswerving trust
The power of a child is greater than you know
Satan dares not touch them for their sweet innocence
To take such preciousness
He'll feel the wrath of me
For he knows the power of their love
The one thing he can't defeat
For how can he destroy that which he does not understand

We are all Gods children and the one thing Satan can't defeat, that he can't take from us is love. The love God gave us, the love we have for others, for each other, for him, the love he so graciously showed to us through Christ!!!

Well thats it
Later
Britt

"I want to make much of you Jesus, I want to make much of your love, I want to live today, To give you the praise, You alone are so worthy of, I want to make much of your mercy, I want to make much of your cross, I give you my life, Take it and let it be used, To make much of you"--Steven Curtis Chapman--

ROLE CALL

Can I get a here from anyone who actually reads this?

We all cry when we're alone

Hey I was at youth the other day and someone said I don't have it all together and I don't claim to. Well this is what I think about it, no one does. I've never met anyone who has it all together, but everyone wants it all together. Ya so when I was thinking about this I came up with this.

WE ALL CRY WHEN WE'RE ALONE

Why do we feel the need to degrade eachother
To tear eachother down to nothingness
Were told it makes us feel better about ourselves
Makes us feel bigger
That drives me nuts
It doesn't work that way
We go home and think about our day and everything we've done
We've hurt others
Then laughed in thier faces
Hurting them because we could
It doesn't make us feel good
Or big
Don't people realize what it really is
We want to be confident
We want to look put together
But we're not
We all cry when were alone
We all degrade ourselves
Tear ourselves down
Down to nothingness
And cry when we're alone
Can't someone help us get it together
And what is together
Some mysterious perfectness
Or happiness
Some ideal
Some picture
Something that probably doesn't exist
Is anyone really together
Can we actually get it together
Is it possible
And if it is why do we want it
Why do we need to look like what we're not
Why can't we let our insecurities out
Put them in the open
I think because we feel vunerable
Because we are vunerable
Who says if we put it all out there things will get better
Wouldn't we get smashed down
Smashed down the same way we smash others down
Pain and suffering draws us closer to him
Us being ripped down
Stripped down
And smashed down
It all draws us to him
But we don't wat to risk the pain it causes
The pain we all feel
The pain that makes us all cry when were alone
When will we give it up
When we care more about him than us
When will we except the tears
The tears of pain we all cry
We cry when we're alone
Why can't we lay it down
Get it out
Give it up
Cause we don't cry alone
We've never cried alone
We'll never have to cry alone
And if we give it up
And lay it down
One day we'll see the one
The one who sees us
Sees us when we cry
And when we see him we will cry again
We will cry and he will cry with us
Not our lonely tears
Not our degraded
Toredown to nothingness
Insecure
Vunerable
Ripped down
Stripped down
Smashed down
Want to have it together tears
But happy tears
Loving tears
Perfect cause we're together tears

As for "getting it together"...throw it out the window. Cause we'll never be happy until we're together; together with him. There is no other together. It doesn't exist! Nobody knows it all except him; so we'll never have it together. Only he will. So forget your "getting it together" ideas and get with him. Then we'll truely be together.
Later
Britt

Only Jesus

Ya so I've been thinking about alot of things lately but I couldn't possibly put them all on here with out it being forever long....so I wont I'll just put up something I wrote a couple of weeks ago.
So here it is

So many people that love me
So many people that care
How can I be so blind
So many ways
So many times
He's showed me that loves me
He's showed me that he's here
How can I be so blind
So blind to what he's given
So blind to what he's done
So blind to who he is
To who he's always been
Why focus on the bad
Why think so negative about my life
Have I truely convinced myself he makes mistakes
How blind am I
How foolish and I
How can I be so blind
So blind for so long
Not to see that he gave all
He gave all for me
How can I ever say that I have no one
When he's made it so obvious
I have him
Him and so many others
Oh how self-centered I can be
To think that my problems are the problems of the world
Not to see that I have it good
Not to see those who truely need
I think it's eaier just to focus on me
When I focus on others I see theier potential
Potential they don't see because they don't know him
Because they don't see he loves them
It hurts so bad to love anyone here
But how long can I avoid it
There is no promise of tomarrow
I know I should step in
But I'm so scared
Here I am focused on me again
If I don't step in and they die today I know where they would go
I could beat around the bush
And say they had a good life
But in the end I know what is true
And it would be my fault
I didn't even try
If I had tried and failed at least I would have tried
But I focused on myself
Myself and not Jesus
Myself and not what he wanted
He wanted those who I avoided
He wants them all
What if I'm the only one they'll listen to
How can I be so blind
To see the speck in thier eye
But not to see the log in my own
To see thier rotten flesh
But not my rotten heart
Yet despite it all he takes me back
Each day he lets me start over again
Praise be to him for his goodness
For his grace and mercy towards and undeserving sinner
No more "poor me"
No more avoiding the truth
Or skirting the point
Only what he wants
Only what he says
Only Jesus

Well ya that it. I would explain it but everthing I write means so many things to me that I couldn't possibly do it all here. Ya so tell me what you think of this one.

Water Deep

Ya so this is a band I found out about through Matt, Herschel, and Chet. Just thought I'd put a couple of thier song on here cause they're awesome! I've only heard a few but here are two good ones.

Sweet River Roll
by Don Chaffer

Homebound Henry’s got a tumor in his head
He wakes up every morning after dreaming he was dead
He used to think that life was boring, but now that’s not the case
He turns to his wife in the evening, he says “Honey I’m afraid I’m gonna lose this race.”

Sweet River, roll all over me
Sweet River, roll all over me

Soaking wet Juliet- she lives in a well full of tears
Her husband left her for some bimbo after twenty-two years
Now she’s got to start all over, but she’s just so terrified
She thinks it woulda been so much easier if he woulda just died

And I’m lookin out my car window sittin’ in the pouring rain
Although your house is fifteen miles away, I can still feel your pain
I’ve thought and prayed and worked it through about a hundred times or more
How your soul just cries to everyone to help you get up off the floor
Right now it’s morning, you’re probably totally unaware
of the flood of kisses you hold back by the way that you despair
It ain’t me I’m talking about here, or anybody else you can touch
That’s all I want to say right now, I don’t want to say too much

except Sweet Jesus, roll all over me
Sweet Jesus, roll all over me…
You gotta come down and just set me free

18 Bullet Holes
by Don Chaffer

18 bullet holes in the body of a priest
They say he was eating a hot dog when the ammunition was released.
They say he was always fat and lazy but he was an awfully nice guy.
That’s just one more death to show you you never know when you’re gonna die.
You might be facing the beast

Sometimes, God, I feel like I’m living in a bone grinding mill
And every time I hear the sound I can barely stand still
It’s a thing I can’t quite make out sometimes but it seems to keep getting louder-
One more body from the valley of the dry bones getting ground up into powder
Against Your holy will

Oh, God, it hurts so bad to love anybody down here
Why don’t You come and help me out?
Cause I can’t even see clear

The funny thing about the way a girl gets destroyed
About the way that deal goes down
Is that everybody pretty much sees it coming at the sister
From all the way across town
And she isn’t always blinded, she isn’t always far astray
She just might not be thinking, she might be having a bad day
But when you choose, you choose, and when you drown, you drown

Last night I dreamed that You swallowed me into Yourself
And I was floating on the sea inside
When I landed on the shore, I saw all these people that I thought had died
I hadn’t seen some of them for ages
They had left without a single word
And when I said something to them, not a single one of them had heard

They were all looking right through everything like it wasn’t even there
Some were full of anger, some full of fear
And then I recognized that something very sad
But very beautiful was happening right here
They were all caught outside standing alone in a very heavy rain
And when a raindrop landed on my tongue
I didn’t need You to explain
That these were Your tears

Oh, God, it hurts so bad to love anybody down here
Oh, that’s right, You know so well
One thorny crown, three nails, and a spear
One thorny crown, three nails, and a spear

Aren't these awesome. I think there very real and to the point. No sugar coating, just the facts.

Hope you liked this.

Later
Britt

dang it..

Just so you know this is all Bethany's fault!

Four jobs you've had in your life: Mowing lawns, witter studio

Four movies you could watch over and over: Monty Python, the Goonies, Ever After, and Willy Wonka and the Choclate Factory.

Four TV shows you love to watch: Gilmore girls, smallville, CSI, Without a Trace

Four places you've been on vacation: Charlotesville, VA, Whitewater, WI, St. Petersburge Florida, several places in TN

Four websites you visit daily: Hotmail, ThatHannahKid, Levithewaynecidiot, My Blog

Four of your favorite foods: Chocolate, penutbutter, Mac-n-cheese, Cottage cheese

Four places you'd rather be: Florida, Tennesee, Anywhere thats not shcool, bed

Four albums you can't live without:Casting Crowns (both), anything relient K, Bethany Dillion-Beautiful,and Chris Tomlin

Four magazines you read: Don't read any

Four cars you've owned: '93 Honda Accord

Your it!: hole(somehannahkid and you have to add 4 most imbarasing moments!)

I love tunnels!

Ya so saturday I went to Geoff Bunting installation and ordination in the CP church at Chanler and I had a blast! I got to see some of my good camp friends and it was great. After the service we hung out at Geoff's new house which is in Bahama Cove...nice!!!!(at least the name is...). There me and Gwen had a fun time making up stories for how she recieved her black eye and their were man good ones however as Gwen said "i got beat up by a 2 year old...thats what it all boils down to." After that we headed on our way home and we stopped a Chick-filet and I had some of thier wonderful sweet tea. I never knew i liked sweet tea until this year and now I'm practically addicted to it...however its not so sweet when your sitting through church after having about 5 cups or on the ride home after 1 large one....anywho... at chick-filet i went and played with the snyder kids in the tunnels in the kid section...yeah i could actually fit....and yeah I know I'm short...just so you don't feel the need to point it out for me...anyway we were playing hide and go seek and it was a blast...yeah so thats about it....sorry to bore you...
oh yeah i got a good response on my last post so I thought I might put more of the things I write on here...tell me if you think I should or not.
Well that's it for now.
Later
Britt

Back And Ready For Action

My bumbling, fumbling words
Oh what pain you cause
I open my mouth and you flow like a river
A river of swords toward the hearts of those I love
I don't know how to stop you
So I try the only way I know how
I throw my heart in front of thiers
Yet I hurt the others still
For you pierce right through my weak and lonely heart
How do I show them you hurt me more
When my hearts so callused from all your scars
Why is sorry so hard
Perhaps because I fear the flood
The flood of blood that strips away the old
The new is so scary
Yet it can't be worse than a river of swords
Oh my bumbling, fumbling words
Why can't you be words of grace and joy
I do not understand
Why is what's in my heart never on my tongue
Healing flood I fear you still
But without you I can't go on
I want to cause hurt no more
So come wash over me
Healing flood of blood
Make me new

Ya so thats it for now. Tell me what you think.

Later
Britt

New Post Comming Soon

Hey just posting to tell y'all there will be a new post soon do not worry!
Later
Britt

HELP ME MAKE IT GO AWAY!!!

This is going to be a short post because I'm just asking for help. My face hurts(ya I know cause it killin you), but seriously it does. My skin is so dry and nothing I do make it better, and worse yet my skins so sensitive that alot of the things I use don't help...they make it worse. One of the lotions I tried that is supposedly for sensitive skin makes my face burn and turn even more red than normal!!!!
Help me make the flakeyness and pain go away...I don't even care that the stuff makes me look bad cause I don't care what people think about the way I look but it hurts REALLY bad. Please help...let me know ANYTHING that has worked for you...I want to end this misery!
Later
Britt
By the way Im sorry about any typos in any of my post...the spell check never works when I'm on the school computers....and help!!!

Chrismas Buyin' and Fender Benderin'

HEY EVERYBODY!!!!
For FCA I asked Mr. Mac if we could get a birthday off the tree at Kincaids and buy gifts...and he said yeah, in fact get two! Yay!!! I was sooooo excited. Well Bryan and I were the only two that were able to go get the presents...and I must say it was a blast...at least for me I won't speak for Bryan. I think I had a little too much fun but it was so much fun to buy things for a kid who can't afford christmas and I felt like I was really helping. We bought SOOOOO much stuff it was crazy!!!! I loved it!!! I wish I had enough money to do some myself...you know without FCA's money.
Yeah so the fender bender part. I was backing out in the gravel parking lot to go to taco tuesday and I was stopping and getting ready to put the car in drive when I felt another car bump me....ahhhh crap!!! My damage was only paint...but it was quite a bit of paint....the guy who backed into me was not so lucky...his tail light is busted and his bumper is about to fall off! For the record I would like everyone to know it was not my fault it was the other guys and I had three witnesses in my car that will back me up!
anywho no major damage was done (to me) and that about it for now.
Later Britt

Ya so not much is goin on...

Well nothing new has happened really but I thought it was about time to apdate again. I'm currently writing a ten page paper on euthanasia.
Oh I just thought of something I could talk about!!! Youth last night was awesome. It was on how bad company correpts good character and the friends you choose. It was also about how sometimes it can be our "christian" friends who are the bad company. Chet also told us to look at ourselves and think are we the bad company in our group of friends? It really got me thinking and it was alot better than I've made it sound but I feel like crap today so I don't really have the energy or will to write anything long and explanitory.
Well thats it
Later
Britt

Ahhhh (the relieved kind) and Ahhh!!!(the crazy kind)

It's so good to talk to awesome friends! I got to talk to a couple of friends that i NEVER get to talk to and it was awesome! I called Miranda and was thinking to myself this is completely pointless because I know her phone doesn't work. And then she answered and I was like...woah!!!! Well apparently she got a new phone and when I asked her what she was doing she said I'm driving and going 85 miles per hour(its ok she was passing someone)...and guess what?!?!? She was on her way to Hannah's house!!!! How cool is that?!?! So I got to talk to both of them as well as Hannah's mom and sister(their both pretty awesome too!). Anywho this does't really have a point other than...Yay...it great to talk to awesome friends!
Now for the crazy ahhhhhhh. Its not that I'm busy...I'm not...in fact I don't really have much to do. It's more of a spiritual ahhhhh. I just realized how self-centered I am. Ok so I've noticed this before but it has never really hit me until the past couple days. I'm so focused on myself that I can't see anything going on around me. I've been more prone to snap at anything people say than I ever have been before. God just woke me up sunday and slapped me in the face and said...wake up, shut up, and look around; whatever happened to putting others before yourself? are you that selfish to only see your own problems????
wow!!! that shocked and kind of scared me...i've always personally thought that the worst quality in a person is self-centeredness....and that this could have a horrible effect on one's spiritual life...and yet here I am being the one thing that I've always told myself I don't want to be.
I've been praying and starting to look around me a little more...I don't know the exact place in the bible but I've been being stalked by....put others before yourself, put others before yourself, put others before yourself............
please pray and keep me accountable...if I'm being rude and stupid and self-centered please tell me so...I may get mad for a while...but I'll love you for it later.
Sorry about the rambling and if this didn't make sense.
Later
Britt

Ho Hum....

Theres not much going on here but its about time to update again. Convo was good and I learned how to play the most awesome game in the world....Settlers of Catan. I have requested this game for christmas because it is soooooo much fun.
Schools the same as always...unfortunatly....and I'm bored out of my mind...espeacially in math because our class goes soooooo slow and I already know how to do most of the stuff were doing but AP classes are too fast. So if your one of those inbetween people your just out of luck.
I really don't know what else to post about because nothing is happening...I read To Kill a Mockingbird....again...its probably my most favorite book ever...it is told from the point of view of an innocent child and yet it is so deep and has so many awesome lessons and points.
ya so sorry to bore you with my book review but like I said theres really nothing going on...and my mind is kind of on that book right now because I'm writing a personal profile on Harper Lee, the author, right now for research and writing.
Ya so thats all...sorry to bore you.
Later
Britt

Humbled

I went to St. Louis Tuesday for my usual six month check up and was humbled. I am humbled everytime I visit Cardinal Glennon Childrens Hospital. I see other people and what they have to go through and live with everyday. I see their fear and uncertainty. I also see all the hope and happiness they have despite these. It really puts your life in perspective when you sit in a waiting room full of crazy things.
I've seen kids who cant move and can only communicate through moans and groans. Kids that are only four or five but look like they could be fourty...whether it is mecical or caused by things they have been through I don't know. I've seen kids have siezures or convultions at random times and their parents just hold them...and to them it is nothing out of the ordinary. I've seen kids with tubes comming out of their heads and necks...the blind...people passing out. I've also seen a parent trying to explain to thier kid that they have to "take pictures of your brain to see if you have a cooties(tumors) and if you do you'll have to check the cooties(see if they are cancerous or not) and have them taken out." Kids that have been through so many things and there only 1...2....3...4....5...6 years old....its crazy.
It really makes you think about other people and what they go through on a daily basis....about how much worse it could be for you and how good you've really got it. I am humbled every time I see the strength of these children and it really makes me take a step back and thank God for being good to me. Simple things start to stand out...i can see and some can't...i can wiggle my big toe and move my finger,i can speak, i can hear, i can grow(doesnt happen often but i can). It really makes me thank God for the little things i take for granted every day.
Praise to you God...for being good to me....all the time.
Later
Britt

I'm back

sorry it took so long for me to update, thigs have been nuts. Just so you all don't ask about it, i'm not playin basketball any more and i don't really want to talk about why.
anywho, my sister called me the other day and told be she had talked to Nina from Bethel College and she said I had been excepted into the renissaince drama program!!! that is great news and Nina is suppose to be calling me anyday to talk about scholarship information.
I also passed my chem test so my grade in there should be ok.
I met a couple of cool kids at the audition too and i'm really looking forward to getting to college and away from high school. i have never hated high school more than i do this year....and thats sayin alot because i've never really liked it that much in the first place.
Im going to the Toby Show in Wayne City on saturday and i've heard its going to be good.
fall convo is next weekend at brush creek church camp and i'm really looking foward to a great experience with God and seeing some of my church camp friends again.
i'm suppose to go to St. Louis on tuesday to the doctor for my normal 6 month check up. yah thats about it. oh and pray....things just kinda suck right now...but if you pray i know God will take care of it cause hes a pretty darn awesome.
Later
Britt

Craziness!!!!! Ahhhhh!!!!!

I think I'm gonna go crazy......This week has been nuts and next will be just as bad.
Basketball practice started monday and basically all we do is run and sprint.....and run and sprint, and run and sprint some more. I was really sore the first 3 days and I'm still sore now but its not as bad as it was. Anywho I get up go to school, then I go to Basketball practice, then to work and I usually don't get home until around 7:00 pm. Then of course I have to do all my homework after I get home...and there seems to be tons of that this year.
Saturday is going to be crazy too. I'ts make a difference day and I have to be at the court house from 10am to 2pm to help FCA with a pork burger sale...cough, cough again to you know who.... Then I have to go home and write two papers...yay... Then I have to go to my cousins wedding thats at 5:30 and I'msupose to be back at the shcool by 6 to get ready for the Hee Haw show I'm going to be in. That poses a problem too because I don't own any overalls and I'm suppose to wear them in the play or what ever you want to call that Hee Haw thingy. So I have to get to Kincaidswhen they open at 7:30 and get some overalls and I have to find the money to pay for those overalls because I'm currently broke.
Next week is going to be crazy too because I have a huge 2 day chemistry test on tuesday and wednesday and if I don't do good I'm not going to be doing well in that class cause the test is worth 200 points.
There is not school Thursday or Friday but thursday I have to go to Bethel College to audition for the drama part of their renissance program. I also have to come up with a 2 to 3 minute monologue for that and finding time to do that is going to be close to impossible. Not to mention it needs be good because I get a scholarship if I make it and any money thats going to help with college is needed.
That it...please pray cause I'm kinda stressed
Later
Britt
(sorry I cant spell and I was in a hurry because this stupid school taptop keeps shuting down on me....and Hannah....hurry....)

2 things....one exicting one depressing(kinda)

So I retook the ACT again because my goal the first time I took it was to beat my sister and needless to say I didn't. I got a 24 and everyone was telling me I was dumb because I was upset about getting that score. Well anywho I finally got my new scores back and guess what........I didn't beat her....again......but I did tie her!!! Wohoooooo!!!!! I was told that a ACT score rarely goes up by more than one point if it does at all....well hah I proved the "they" people....whoever "they" are......wrong. My score went up 2 points. But since I only tied her I'm going to take it again sometime to attempt to beat her score and if I don't oh well a 26 is good enough. In fact it made me so happy that when my mom told me what I got I jumped and screamed.....it was very exciting!!!!
Anywho onto the depressing thing. This actually happened a while ago but I was so tramatized I didn't blog about it....ok so actually I just forgot to but anywho.... I had been at Angelina's house....which is in Geff.....and I was on my way home. It was dark out and I was just getting into town and was by the stop lights by the old Wal-Mart. Suddenly there were a bunch of eyes gleaming at me and before I new it all 6 eyes were in the road (which means 3 animals for you people who don't like math). I had just run over three extremely fat ratcoons. I tried to slow down and get in the other lane but I didn't do it fast enough and I ran over all 3...thunk,thunk, thunk......I gasped and drove the entire way home with my mouth wide open. It was so sad I was even going the speed limit(+5) and I still couldn't slow down in time. I tried to make myself feel better by saying that they must have been eating someones cat food to get so fat....but then I talked to Ben and he convinced me that I had ran over 3 pregnant ratcoons and that they were going to have 20 babies each which means I really killed 63 ratcoons....ahhhhhh!!!!!!! Thanks Ben....your such and encouragement.....
well thats all for now
Later
Britt

Random Junk

So this is everything thats been going on all thrown together.
why do we feel the need to put like 8 !'s or ?'s when we want to show more emphasis. Yeah i do it and i dont plan on stopping either i just wondered why because its not like we put 8 .'s at the end of a sentence to make a statement stronger. No one says Blah Blah Blah.......
and ends the sentence like that uless their hinting at something, so why do we do it with !'s and ?'s. Sorry just one of the stupid things that goes through my head.
Anywho, i had to do the last FCA devotion cause Quach had to leave for alpha and i was so nervous i was shaking but i think i did ok. i used casting crowns song Prodical, the story of the prodical son, and 1 john 1:9 (i think).
anywho its spirit week and the days this year are: twin day (angelina was my twin and this is the first year ive ever had a twin on twin day), wacky tacky day, favorite super hero or cartoon character day(im gonna be a ninja turtle!!!! Ahhhh theres the multiple!'s), and of course crazy red and black day.
So some of the crazy stuff goin on in my life is starting to settle down but theres still a bunch of things im stressin about. sorry i cant tell you what they are but i would appreciate it if you would pray about them. Oh and cough, cough to the person who needs to get thier FCA goin....yeah you know who you are (and its not Levi).
Well thats it for now
Later Britt

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Sorry its been so long

Hey everybody....sorry its been so long since I've posted......I've been a little busy lately. So the studing thing turned out ok because the boys mom made them leave me alone and I think I did ok on the test....Wohoooo!!!!!!!!!
FCA has been great. We had over 100 people at see you at the pole and 33 people were at our last meeting. Some people should consider getting thier FCA goin good....Cough, Cough...you know who you are!!!!!!
Any who Chet was the speaker and he did a great job!!!! Quach is suppose to be doing it this week so I'm sure it will be great!!!!!
We'll alot of things have been going on lately...some good and some bad. I'd love to tell you about them but I can't really but I would definately appreciate it if everyone would pray about all the crazy things going on.
Later
Britt

Ok I'm Posting

Sorry I haven't posted latley everyone.....there really hasn't been that much to post about. Nothing exciting has happened. I've had a song stuck in my head for the past 2 days. It a Casting Crowns song....imagine that.....from thier new CD. The song is "Can Anybody Hear Her" and its great. The CD is so good I can't pick a favorite song!!!!
So tonight I have to study for a geography test and some of our family friends are coming over so they can work out all the detail about upward basketball. I'm not really looking foward to it because I've been told it's my job to entertain the kids.....great. Its not that I don't love kids....I do....but its two boys...a 7th grader and a 1st grader.....and I really don't want to have them around while I'm trying to study. If there is any distraction around I cant study, which basically means I'll fail the test.
Sorry I'm being a whinner....but like I said there isn't really anything to post about....in fact this is probably my most boring post ever....so i'll just quit now.
Later
Britt